Finding Me

Well, my Freshman year at NNU has come to a close, and I am so thankful for the opportunities that I've had thus far. It has been the most challenging year of my life, but also the most rewarding. I have made many new friends, who I know will be friends forever, and have learned important lessons about myself and life in general. 

The spring semester in specific was extremely difficult for me. I was no longer a scared little freshman coming in, but I was sure a confused one. I witnessed things that I never could have imagined. God revealed Himself like never before. My faith was pushed to new heights. But in the midst of all the big miracles and noise, I lost touch with the quiet voice of God. I was so intrigued by all the things He was doing that I took my focus off of the Maker Himself. 

I was given a reality check by those who know me the best: those at home. While I was being bombarded with all things extravagant, they were there to remind me that the little things are just as important. They grounded me and showed me that God really is that big, and there is no way we can understand Him, so we have to stay grounded in not knowing. 

That is what this year has consisted of. If anything, being here has taught me how little I know and how little I am. I am just a girl. There are millions of us out there. But, I am also a daughter of the King. Yes, there are just as many of us out there, but that is what makes us special. God has made us unique, and has crafted us specifically for one purpose. 

It's been an amazing year of discovering my purpose. I never would have thought that I would be on the path toward becoming a middle school music teacher, but here I am. God has laid out the way for me, and I can't wait to see what the next years hold. I never thought I would be in charge of a wing of girls and trying to decorate and plan events for them, but here I am. God has laid this task out before me, and it will be a year of stretching myself. I never thought I would be spending the summer singing throughout the northwest, but here I am. God has set this path before me, and it is about to begin. I never thought I would be where I am today. But I have learned that God is bigger than any of my thoughts, hopes or dreams. And still, the same God is small enough to care about those thoughts, hopes, and dreams. 

I have discovered me this year. I still have a long way to go, and I don't know what exactly my future holds, but I know who holds it. I can be confident in the fact that God has made me unique. I am a daughter of the King. I am one of many, but that is what makes me special. And that same fact makes each of us special. I pray that I can continue to live out this message as I seek to truly learn it myself. 

Filled

I started out this semester on a really bad foot. I wasn't ready to be back in Nampa; I wasn't ready to leave my family and friends behind again. When I got here, I was feeling sorry for myself. I felt alone. Now that I've been here a few weeks, I can't believe how ungrateful and blind I was. Last week was prayer and fasting week on campus, and every night consisted of a prayer meeting with an amazing group of students and a few faculty members. This week changed my life. I gained a family here. The people that I have grown to know have made me realize that God is truly always there. When I was complaining about not feeling like I had any close friends, I can just imagine God looking down at me saying, "really, Angela? You're going to say I haven't given you people? Look around." 


I feel as though I have discovered a whole new me this week. Although it's been exhausting and extremely busy, I have come to develop relationships that will always be there. I have had the opportunity to pray with most of the Freshman girls. I have had the opportunity to see people at their weakest for the glory of Christ. After this week, I feel as though I could not be any fuller. I am so blessed to be here in this place with these people who are so filled with the Spirit. God is moving here, and it is undeniable that something incredible is coming to this anointed generation. I can't wait to see what is to come!