The spring semester in specific was extremely difficult for me. I was no longer a scared little freshman coming in, but I was sure a confused one. I witnessed things that I never could have imagined. God revealed Himself like never before. My faith was pushed to new heights. But in the midst of all the big miracles and noise, I lost touch with the quiet voice of God. I was so intrigued by all the things He was doing that I took my focus off of the Maker Himself.
I was given a reality check by those who know me the best: those at home. While I was being bombarded with all things extravagant, they were there to remind me that the little things are just as important. They grounded me and showed me that God really is that big, and there is no way we can understand Him, so we have to stay grounded in not knowing.
That is what this year has consisted of. If anything, being here has taught me how little I know and how little I am. I am just a girl. There are millions of us out there. But, I am also a daughter of the King. Yes, there are just as many of us out there, but that is what makes us special. God has made us unique, and has crafted us specifically for one purpose.
It's been an amazing year of discovering my purpose. I never would have thought that I would be on the path toward becoming a middle school music teacher, but here I am. God has laid out the way for me, and I can't wait to see what the next years hold. I never thought I would be in charge of a wing of girls and trying to decorate and plan events for them, but here I am. God has laid this task out before me, and it will be a year of stretching myself. I never thought I would be spending the summer singing throughout the northwest, but here I am. God has set this path before me, and it is about to begin. I never thought I would be where I am today. But I have learned that God is bigger than any of my thoughts, hopes or dreams. And still, the same God is small enough to care about those thoughts, hopes, and dreams.
I have discovered me this year. I still have a long way to go, and I don't know what exactly my future holds, but I know who holds it. I can be confident in the fact that God has made me unique. I am a daughter of the King. I am one of many, but that is what makes me special. And that same fact makes each of us special. I pray that I can continue to live out this message as I seek to truly learn it myself.
