Big

So one thing that I've discovered over the past week or so is that God is huge. Like bigger than I could have ever imagined. And He has a plan for me that's just as big as He is.

For a few years now I've felt like God was calling me toward music. But for the past few months I've felt like I'm not good enough. I thought that if He was really wanting me to do music He would have given me more talent for it. He would have made it easier for me to be amazing at it.

See, lately, I haven't felt good enough for anything or anyone. So many people have left me, forsaken me, stopped talking to me, that there has to be something wrong with me, right? Maybe if I was just a little bit prettier, a little bit funnier, a little bit smarter, or just a little bit better, these people would still be around and I'd still be as happy as I used to be. Maybe then I could live up to the high expectations everyone seems to have for me.

Or maybe not. Maybe God's made me this way for a specific reason. Maybe I already have everything I need to be great. Maybe, with God's help, I can pursue music. Maybe, God willing, someone will love me enough to stick around someday.

I've realized that God's plan is bigger than I am. He's already using me to affect people, if I just open my eyes and let Him work through me. And, you know, God's plan is bigger than you too. We all just have to have the confidence in ourselves to do what He asks, and the confidence in Him to know that He has everything under control. It's never going to be easy, but that's what makes it so much more rewarding. I'm so thankful that God is bigger than I could ever imagine. And He's big enough for you too. =)